Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Don't think twice, it's all right.

It's definitely a Bob Dylan day today.

I'm tired. I got about eight hours of sleep, but I'm just ready to drive up into my mountains, hike somewhere, lay down, listen to my chill playlist, and watch the earth bundle up for winter.
But instead, I think I'll try and type out my tired thoughts and be ready for the rest of the day.
I don't want to go to school anymore. It's so fun, I love learning, and I love this time of my life, but goodness gracious am I sick of it. Don't get me wrong, I am one of the luckiest souls on the earth because I can go to school. I can improve myself and the world around me. I have the time and resources for it. But sometimes I just want to not have to prove myself by points, papers, quizzes, and attendance every single day.
I figured out my graduation timeline, and I should be able to graduate in the Fall of 2014. With a Bachelor of Science in Exercise Science and a minor in Biology.

Sounds cool, right?

Well. I haven't the foggiest of what to do with that. There's definitely not a lot haha. Except I'll have my piece of paper that accounts for thousands of dollars, years of effort, and one Tracie. My brother has said that what you get your degree in doesn't really matter, but I'm getting nervous. If I can't find a career or lifestyle that fits within exercise science, I'll drive myself to some school that will take me for graduate work and maybe go further. But PLEASE let that not be the case. Because school is that crazy annoying huge spot on my glasses. I just can't think or plan past it.

I want to work somewhere that challenges me. That prompts me to be better. And that enables me to spend time and the money I earn living my life. I want to do so much. I want to become a canyoneer, hike 14,000 ft + mountains, explore the ocean, dance fantastic dances, explore and live in the mountains I love, go to concerts full of people so smashed (on life or alternate substances) all they do is smile and move to the music.

I'm really excited for life. I'm excited about how it's going right now. And I'm excited for what's after. I hope that I can always remember the way I feel now, and to not let silliness get in the way of my priorities. My family, exploring, and caring for those around me.

I think I'll go buy a muffin now on my way to my lab, and after that, I'll ride the bus home. Then I'll study for my tests next week with some hot chocolate and end the day at dance. Then tomorrow, I'll start over again. Keeping good tunes in my ears, good thoughts in my head, and good feelings to push myself to get the things done that I need to do to earn another good night's rest.

For the Shire!

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