Friday, April 13, 2012

New Freckles.

Since music affects moods so much, I'm going to start posting what I'm listening to while I'm writing. I love this composer and movie. I love the feeling I get while listening to it. He's the same composer who did Finding Nemo, Meet Joe Black, and Shawshank Redemption, some of my favorite movie scores. You can hear similarities a ton, especially with Finding Nemo, I think!

Here I am, a test in 17 minutes, blogging again. When I feel like I've done everything I could, I don't know what to do with my remaining few minutes, and I just feel like writing. I really am sorry that my blog has been so contemplative lately, I've just really missed writing and it feels so good to get it out somewhere. And let's be honest, it's not like I'm doing a million adventures anyways, so I wouldn't be posting otherwise ha.

So, thank you for tolerating my daily ponderings, no matter how brief, shallow, deep, or entertaining they are. Because I forget how much I love to write, but now I remember! I hope everyone is having a fabulous Friday! Yippee for weekends!

Also, for all you fashionistas out there (Laura), I just thought I'd let you know today's outfit:
Thoroughly worn running shoes
running shorts
free Wells Fargo tee shirt
Bieber jacket
French braid
= campus couture.
How on this good green earth do I have a boyfriend?

Thursday, April 5, 2012


Once upon a time, a girl had never tried chocolate before.
She saw it everywhere, and heard everything about it in movies and songs.
Then one day, she had the great pleasure of tasting some Hershey's chocolate.
It was the greatest thing she had ever tried, and she was enthralled.
It was all she wanted to eat, all day, everyday.
It was all she thought about.

Then, someone told her, "Tracie, in order to get some elite Swiss chocolate, you must give up the Hershey's chocolate, just for a little while. Patience."
And she said, "No, thank you. I would like my chocolate back, please. In fact, any chocolate would suffice, even some from the Deseret Industries would be delightful."

But she complied.
And now, all she wants is some dang chocolate.
And her heart hurts.

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Rooftop Nighttime Picnics

Tracie in Charge! 

How I desperately wish, haha!

Right now, I am in a turbulent river, doggy paddling just to stay up! But the good news is that my shoulders and face are getting sunburned while swimming, the water is the perfect temperature, and I'm wearing a really cute swimsuit. So really, it's an overall fabulous experience, being tossed around in this body of water called life. And I'm loving every minute of it.

My concert is finally happening next week! I have seriously poured so much of myself into dancing this year, that I am exhausted, emotionally and physically. It has been the most fruitful dancing year of my life, I have learned so very much about myself, the amazing girls I dance with, and dance itself. I could never stop. I complain about it daily, but it is truly my one release. It is the one aspect in my life in which I can confidently say I am not a failure in, because success directly follows effort. It is instant gratification at it's finest and least morally offensive. Most of the time. :) So after this week, I will have much more time, but will be very lost.

I love every single thing I'm learning about. Some of it, I have to try much harder to love, but when it comes, it is amazing. I have an exam in one hour, and I am terrified. Exams are the bane of my existence. I feel like I've tried my best. I don't know what else to do to prepare. But the score is always a surprise. Hopefully, it will reflect my efforts and passion. 

Never in my life have I been so ridiculously blessed in the people surrounding me. False, always in my life, I have been ridiculously blessed, but the fact that I STILL am getting THIS blessed is amazing. My Heavenly Father, my roommates, my wonderful family, my neighbors, my dance family, every single person who has smiled at me has given me the determination to love as much as they love me, despite how very little I deserve it. I am incredibly blessed.

So while this week has been one of the hardest in my life, while it's only Wednesday, it has been incredibly rewarding. I love the feeling of going to bed, completely exhausted, but knowing you did everything you could that day.
And even if I'm not happy when I accidentally swallow a gulp of river water or my contacts are getting blurry from the waves splashing me, I am enormously happy and satisfied with being able to swim in the the river in the first place. Because it's a beautiful day.

Faith removes all Fear.

I've given, and I've received.
Life is Good, and I can't wait for more.